I have decided to just work on my marriage and end this blog. I will perhaps start up another one without all the negativity that this one carries.

I know it's been a while. A lot has happened, but a lot has not changed. My husband is still non-communicative and just as boring, while this other man, who I hardly see is always on my mind. I have to admit- something happened to make me even more attracted to him. He kissed me. It wasn't just a peck, I was walking past him when he grabbed me and kissed me. Unbelieveable. I have never been kissed like that before. What am I doing?